Did I take the wrong path???

I sometime feel like "this things doesn't belong to me". Why is it that everyone can do well and I can't. Am I too worst, up to the extent of spoiling it for the second time. They say " we spoiled before because it was our first time", but what am I suppose to say  after spoiling it in the second attempt. 

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Does this really doesn't belong to me? Did I really take the wrong path? Am I too lacking in this field? Should I have opted for different option? 

My mind just doesn't feel secured. These are the question that prompt into my mind everytime. And the everytime these question comes in, I am left in my own world of despair.  

I want to go back.... I really want to go back... I WISH if there was a time machine. A time machine to go back and put the things back to normal.. Only if this could happen....

Seeing things going so smoothly with others makes me feel happy but seeing my own situation makes me worst...at heart. I want to ask suggestion, in a way a help but its just that I am left without any words infront of them I just can't utter a word concerning me. Moreover I guess I am not of the open type to sit and share these things with others. I can categorize myself in the Reserved group of people, guess that's the best word to describe me.

The past was worst, the present doesn't seem to be going well and because of this present I wonder what has been written in my future. I hope these question don't bother me as I go on experiencing the ups and downs as I walk through this mile and in the next extra mile, I wish to smile and walk swiftly.

P.S- This is my weather forecast for now, its stormy right now. Hopping for something like, bright sunny day in the near future...

Autumn season?...

October has just started and I realize that a month has already passed since the autumn has started. After the blessed rainy day(which was on 23rd of September), my mother said that the days will become much cooler than the summer months. But here in Phuntsholing it is still hot although the morning and evening are a little cooler than earlier days.

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As I hear the season autumn I expected the earth to be covered with the blanket of leaves and as I walk on the roads I expected the dried leaves to fall from the trees and fly with the wind but my expectation is all in vain. Here I feel like autumn is yet to come from afar. But I guess it is not too late since there is again two months left including October for the trees to shed their leaves and feel empty for a while.

However I know not all places has the same climate as it is in here and they get to know all four seasons. I hope, I too will get to know all four season some day when I get to the right places and enjoy the true, genuine seasons(hehe..). 

Well hoping for the days ahead to be filled with excitement and hoping to see the trees shed their leaves get a little chill in winter so that they could welcome fresh and young leaves in the next season to grow young again. 

Quotes from the audio

The audio doesn't have a proper title and the it doesn't say who the narrator in it is. It just starts with quotations and finishes with quotations. I don't remember from whom I transffered it to my mobile but I do feel grateful for whoever shared it with me for it calms me whenever I am down. It is slow and soft and as i listen to it, I feel like a story is being narrated and I then find mysefly calmly concentrating to it.

"It hurts to love someone and don't be loved in return. But what is most painful is to love someone and never have the courage to let that person know know how you feel."

"May be god wants us to meet few wrong people before meeting the right one. So that when we finally meet the right person we will know how to be grateful for that gift."

"Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance of the relationship and find out you still care for that person."

"A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be. But you have to let go."

"When the door of happiness closes, another opens. But often sometimes we look so closer to the closed door that we don't see the one which have been opened for us."

"The best kind of friend, is the kind you can just be with. Never say a word and the walk away with the feeling, like it was the best conversation that you have ever had."

"It is true that we don't know what we have got until we loose it. But its also true that we also don't know what we have been missing until it arrives."

"Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart. But if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours."

"There are things you would love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from. But don't be so deaf, to not to hear it from the one who says it from heart."

"Never say good bye, if you still want to try. Never say give up, if you still feel you can go on.Never say you don't love a person anymore, if you can't let go."

"Love comes to those, who still hope, although hey have been disappointed. to those who still believe, although they have been betrayed. To those who still need to love, although they have been hurt before. and to those who have the courage and the faith to build the trust again."

"It takes only a minute to have a crush on someone, An hour to like someone and a day to love someone. But it takes a lifetime to forget someone."

"Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth even they fades away. Go for someone who can make you smile, because it takes only  a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find someone who makes you smile."

P.S- Happy reading to all, whoever encounters this page and I hope it gives you some thought to be    thought like it does to me. Enjoy!!!

Mela....the most anticipated event

If you are in Phuntsholing, you would not want to miss the event that is taking place in the neighborhood. It is a good way to relax and have fun after a packed schedule the whole week.  About a few minute drive from Jaijoan,India Mela, as for what the Indians call is taking place. As per Google, encyclopedia, "Mela is a sanskrit word meaning gathering or to meet or a fair...  In recent times Mela also popularly refers to shows and exhibitions. It can be theme-based, promoting a paticular culture, art or skill. generally in Melas people can find eateries, entertainment activities, shops and games".

True to the meaning although it was not as huge as other places, it did have all the tings mentioned in the meaning. there were small stall selling varities of dishes, clothes, household items, girly stuffs, childen stuffs and many more. and the thing that I anticipated the most was shopping. Wow! Shopping seems to be fun but when you get home, you become amazed by the amount of money you have spent. You simply want to curse yourself but then by seeing at the things, you are amazed again and you simply admire them just like I admire mine.

Some glimpse from Mela

Ever shouted on top of your voice? Ever felt the free falling body of yours? Ever felt like you can touch the sky? If not then you would not want to come back without trying out one of those scary rides. There was a huge ride(called rotipin), the boat, the disco, the train and many other small rides for the children.

Well I got in two rides, the train and the boat and I did't dare to ride the rotipin because of the incident last year. I was actually shouting like I was going to fall and was in the verge of crying. So I decided not to ride again. actually the boat also gave me the same feeling. I thought my my heart was about to come out and the fall was actually like I was falling from a building(just an exaggeration, i guess). Again the rain at that instant did an awesome job, instead of cooling down my fright it happened to pour salt water onto my fright. I wished I shouldn't have ridden on it however  when I got out I wanted to have that excitement again but I didn't dare. however my friends say it is fun and they are always daring.  

My friends, having fun despite the rain

After riding, playing, eating and shopping we completely forgot that we have to get back home. It was already late so keeping our excitement aside and gathering up ourselves we headed home. We had so much fun despite the rain and we always have when ever we go and I would anticipate for it next year too.

P.S - I couldn't find the actual name of the rides.

My undefeatable sister

It was some days ago when i was scrolling down my facebook page and i suddenly came across a picture. It was this...

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"Enjoyment is fighting with your sister". Really!!! Does it really give you enjoyment? No, I thought for sometime because i have never enjoyed fighting with my sister.
Again the next day it was the same picture and this time i took a closer look and read some comments too. This time I gave a thought and just recollected some of the days I had fight with my sister. Well to my amusement instead of anger and disappointment it brought a smile on my face. Thinking of it, i found out that we fought over some silly reasons which didn't mean anything and the most silly thing was we were able to forgive and make up with eachother.

My sister is 5 years younger than me and may it is because of this reason that sometimes we have different views on certain topics and we would spend hours arguing and defending our own view. We would not stop until one is satisfied or one gives up.
Actually the one who gives up is me because is she far too defeatable. Even my mom accepts defeat infront of her. There is even a time when my mom calls her the Boss of the house because she being the youngest in the family have been pampered by us all this time and she doesn't listen to anyone.

Sometimes if I happen to defeat her(by default), it would be her day again because she would swell up her face and would not say anything for hours and even for days. And this time instead of defending myself, I would be running around her trying to convince her to forgive me.
She is a fast forgiver, only if i trade something with her. Sometimes she would ask me to do her works, run errand and most of the time she would command me to cook her favorite snacks.
Stubborn she is. However if she feels she is wrong, she never backs off to apologize for it and i love this trait of her.

At the end of the day, we don't talk about the fight again because we would have already made up and enjoying the snacks together, giggling to eachother. And the fighting and the making up process still continues whenever we are together and in the process our love for eachother grows a little by little.

P.S- Ana loves you Zamin!

Spare time in college

With packed classes from morning till evening my friends are all tired yet they dig out some time to go through that is out of college syllabus but something useful. 

Today a friend went to library saying she want to bring some books. I thought she is going to bring some text books for reference but to my surprise i found some novel in her hands. And now i see all my roommates busy with a novel each. They all seem to have the same reading technique unlike me, they are silent and very carefully reading and I must say that they are all fast readers.

Sometimes Sonam often shares some lines from the book which she finds interesting just like today " blessed are those who are not afraid to admit that they don't know something" and then she goes back to reading.

Reading has never been my hobby and to complete reading a novel was never a piece of cake but surprisingly they seem to inspire me and now I am also thinking of reading one but I don't know if that inspiration is going to last long... However i hope for the best...

Starting today

I have always wanted to write, and jot down the thoughts that strikes me anytime, anywhere but there was something that would drag me behind and i would be lacking my words to express it. Anyhow now i am getting inspired by many writers in and around especially by the people i know the most and also by seeing my friends jotting down their thoughts.
Today I am starting my blog(thanks to Jigme Zangpo), which i call it Diary of my voyage. I hope to fill it with the thoughts and my experiences through my walks of life.
I admit that i am not a good writer and I know that my vocabulary won't  be  enough for the people to get inspired however i feel that i am going to try my best in expressing myself. And i too hope that whoever reads my blog would atleast be entertained or so...

Appreciation: Jigme Zangpo thank you for your help and inspiring me at the same time and also all the writers(bloggers) that i have been visiting.